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If you know who Niblik is, you are obviously meant to interact with me. Don't fight the power of the coincidence -- I have something for you and you have something for me. Deal.

Ok, I listed IM stuff - I use trillian.

This is a repository of my thoughts and views. I experienced a sort of amnesia on some things, and realized how importance it was to record myself down in case I lost those thoughts again. Share comments if you want, doesn't matter to me -- my thoughts are there for me if I lose them again.

(12-27-2005) The next millenium. I think it is time to append to this LJ's description in the spirit of, "I no longer hide, thank you," to the person-that-started me doing that.

I am Pat. Sometimes I am Patrick. More often than not, I would answer to Nibs or Niblik. Properly named, Niblik Vanduvere (Niblik Van Du'Vere).

I underwent a period from 1999-2003 where I was so stagnant that the time all blurred. I thought I had had amnesia from it, and well, there were several things I did block out. I have remembered most of that time, now. That was what I created my LJ for. In case I ever mind-wipe myself, deciding to hit the erase key on my memory core again. I figured I might just want to remember who I am or at least who I was. Even if all of that is becoming increasingly irrelevant to my own state of being.

I have a tendency to re-create myself as I go along. I have studied, been and done a lot of strange and different things. I have tried to list that over and over and even I have a difficulty believing my own past. I know some of those things happened, I have pictures. Don't ask where I have gone and I won't try to tell you where I have been -- it goes beyond the "suspension of disbelief" (similar to Fonzie's shark jump). I have convinced, converted, and proven myself to others enough times -- I do not care to do so anymore. I am. Claiming too specific of a role is a limitation of who I am.

Usually, I am a corporate IT professional that has finally gotten a cubicle again rather than sitting in the server room directly under the AC vent -- at least, that's my official day job. I lead a very boring, mundane life. I do wood working and play computer games. At least, that is what I try to convince people, and for months at a time I succeed. (Then my nature comes out)

Rather than go through more effort of describing myself, I will just give some quotes and truisms that I have picked up:

*Choice leads to consequences.
*Action leads to results.
*Energy is neither created nor destroyed.
*There is no good and evil, only application and perspective-based definition of the resultant.
*Everything is a tool to use - the power is yours on what you choose to do with it.
*We are all where we are at because our past and future chose for us to be there.
*The world is our present to ourselves -- unwrap it and have fun.
*There is no such thing as coincidence.
*Don't buy nor sell your own bullshit, it is stinky enough without spreading it around.
*A leap of faith will always land you in a better situation.
*Ask and ye shall receive. (Chinese curse: May you get what you wish for.)
*Have your soul ask for you and you receive what you actually required.
*The light is too painful for someone who wants to remain in darkness.
*Relationships are a spiritual challenge, the challenge is to remain Being you and to aid the other person in Being them.
*The light protects its own.
*We do not move to the next experience, when we are alive or dead, until we are done with the current experience.
*Insanity is doing the same thing every day and expecting different results.
*Sanity is doing the same thing every day and expecting the same results or doing something different and expecting different results.
*Everything around us is merely a reflection, definition, and extension of what our "self" image/identity is.
*To change the world, change your "self".
*Until you are ready to let go and accept something else, you will keep holding on.
*If you are not able to be alive where you are at, you will not be alive anywhere else, either.
*The past is the past. The more we hold on to it the less we get now.
*The future is the future. The more we dream of it the less we get now.

Quotes From Others:
*Sometimes, you have to play the evil games in order to win. --paraphrased from f_o_n_y
*If you only knew the power of the Dark Side. --Darth Vader
*One observes the survivors, and learns from them. --Bene Gesserit, Frank Herbert
*Kindness is the beginning of cruelty. --Muad'Dib, Frank Herbert
*There's no real mystery about this at the moment. This is what we want now. It may prove wrong later, but we'll correct that when we come to it. --The Mentat Handbook, Frank Herbert (one of my favorite two mentat sayings)
*Ultimately, all things are known because you want to believe you know. --Zensunni koan, Herbert
*There's no secret to balance. You just have to feel the waves. --Darwi Odrade, Herbert
*Everyone has self doubts. Success is found in accomplishing results in spite of those doubts. --Unknown, may have been me.
*I am what I am --Lady Jay
*...when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. Harry Burns, When Harry Met Sally
*Playing alone means never having to play someone else's favorite game. p.255, The Loner's Manifesto by Anneli Rufus.
*Things don't happen to me, they happen for me. --Unknown

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